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26 Martie 2009In order to there are beds at home, have just formed the habit that the pillow is read.
Before the about several decades, China’s Mainland rise one fever for book of changes suddenly, friend meet, say something " Taiji born two appearances while being popular, two appearances grow four alikely " ,etc. professional term. I’m afraid to crowd and liven up, if meet meddlers and fight in the street, others never admix while enclosing a circle, the ones that waited for and watched the scene of bustle just gathered together to see after leaving. Read book of changes so too – -Someone else are hot to look on while reading, wait for everybody’s warm feeling to break up, just under the enticement of a little friend, send for a few books and eliminate illiteracy.
That was read most was not actually original work, cherished in the south of the Taiwanese scholar the old gentleman taught the breaking out loudly of book of changes sincerely – -In order to learn urgently neededly first, get instant result.
The south gentleman says book of changes is unsuitable to understand, if calculate that can fall to death today, how dull is it? I think, the south gentleman’s meaning may have a little suspense to speak life, can be compared to and touch the mahjong tiles: Why how much long for and fight by infatuation, brave man of hero, will the Great Wall never go bankrupt? I always wondered in the past what’s the point of that thing, bidge table once until being previous – -Touch one by one, just know in fact the change is infinite, find pleasure in it: The ones that won were not given up, the ones that lose are not given up either – -Touch the card and let people store the hope forever, maybe the next is exactly what you want! Later on I understand what great glamour that thing is, when how can yet, wash hands with gold basin at once, otherwise absolutely habit-forming!
The fun of playing card lies in being always hopeful, if know early what goods the card is all alone, it is " it sum " " ground sum " May have had no strength too. It is the same too for people not to live, 100 year old 30,000 come on day, just as play hundreds of cards, pass day by day, there is suspense everyday, it is dull today, inaccurate too that it will lower the pie tomorrow, reply, wish, go down tomorrow tomorrow, wait for have, the kind card perhaps perhaps like this, live, appear, hope, happen pieces of mediocre day flavour come on while being living?
While playing mahjong, every round touches the card and always looks for a place to start, then must throw the dice. It is equally too to calculate book of changes. The Eight Diagrams picture of book of changes is a round, cut from any one, he says in all right round, it actually explains the universal meter studied. Once, a friend tries to use the nativity writings, unexpectedly find and blurt out on the newspaper for one day, it is in conformity with own natural instinct to caculate, change the Eight Character and calculate again, feel reasonable, the squeak is appealed for! He exclaims: All accurate in the the four seas that were put originally!
Full of book of changes to revere from then on, did not believe again moderns could understand it. Who knows our ancestor wants to seem to be the clear and actually abstruse and incomparable characters of smooth dawn through a mysterious the Eight Diagrams picture and some, really tell us what? Which major events to happen in the world behind predicting them, or will judge what course should follow on the celestial body that this mankind depended on for existence? The password that moderns can not really understand in figure and character of book of changes at all is being hidden?
Big and intelligent and big intelligently, our ancestor! Anyway not understand either, needn’t sit in front of the desk in fear and trepidation. While wanting to read, admire it on the bed holding book of changes, the pillow is read comfortably – -So long as the ancestor does not blame.
Old firewood (1) of at yesterday
Listened to Tchaikovsky at that time – -Old firewood, differ from now radically, one kind is novel, mysterious, even the mood furtively, and this kind of feeling can hang people’s appetite even more, exciting.
Eight yuan is from outdated phonograph that trusted the firm to buy, the dark brown wooden shell casket that it is all sides that is one. If put it on the desk now, it is estimated that no one can recognize what toy it is. The characteristic of its richest individual character is transferring to and looking like the aslant top of one Xuan, flicker flicker, that music has been taken in the score unexistently and undulatingly, enable me when listening to it, the body always wants to rock together accordingly.
It is in grade five of primary school to listen to the old firewood for the first time. Because is allergic to a certain baffled material, I suspend schooling at home in two terms continuously. Thought at that time every the sky and the sun happened the course at sunset was incomparably long, except ate, slept, only two things have some meaning in bored stiff: First, listen to the music, second, read and dissect the atlas – -Though have absolutely nothing to do with each other between them!
Only there are three music records, ownership does not belong to me. The host is afraid the record is rubed out of order by the thick and bald stylus, always agitate me to listen to the cross-talk, such as Mr. Hou Bao Lin’s " opera and dialect ", make me few and bold and assured a little while listening to old firewood like this. Mr. Hou Bao Lin says the cross-talk sounds more normal, not as fluid as music of the old firewood. I could only recognize " Swan Lake ", knew later another two were " first piano concertoes " and " sorrowful " in three records, the composer is named by us " Firewood driver " .
Read " the human body dissects the atlas ", basically moves about in the underground, because it is of dubious background, it was I that came out suitably from the book case of the lock. Commit theft technology to be uncomplicated, push simple and crude cupboard door, can emerge one enough to take one chink of book out. Having happened to too, if it is a bit thicker, or will put in the inside but will set up by the door, it will be another the same to listen to the feeling of the old firewood. The thick atlas is colored, it is very exquisite to print. It calls together so that I am free to study – -How wear grotesquly like this in people’s skin? Can read the picture book in order to read rapidly enough at ordinary times, the uncritical acceptance without real comprehension of what one reads or studies, but the atlas is read very diligently, because I conclude that can not be got such one more in short time " Unsuitable for children " .
Family members become my world in the room after going to work, going to school every day. The rotational speed inhomogenous phonograph will very dogged, no matter how attempt through adjust competence stationarity to improve it of no avail I. But it is quite devoted to one’s duty, do not mind its broadcasting those three tired out records in turn allly every day, let the hollow room full of mine " Firewood driver " ,The day recuperating is getting bright and beautiful too.
Read working and listening to the old firewood and basically going on in step of atlas, think the sense of hearing is benefited from but the vision is more terrific at the beginning, while especially turning to that human skeleton showing the head skeleton. Seeing and hearing unify a little slowly, lie prone in bed opening atlas, old melody strength of firewood the paper give a piggyback completely in one’s ear, feel people " Inside " In fact see pretty well: Lamination thick and long muscles, do like the branch of the dark green cypress; Close blood vessel and nerve spreading over whole body, like the roads and rivers to the vertical-horizontal earth; The cavity with different form or essence internal organs, some look like a certain ripe fruit, some looked like the abstractionism artist’s works, some’s beauty unexpectedly was like the coral.
Old firewood for at yesterday for particular background, sound for special feeling. Spy out layer inside of people among beautiful melody, soul to spy out people – -Though the materialist says people have no soul. What kind of kind that is to imprint on the bones and inscribe on the memory. Recover after going back to school, according to the understanding of old firewood and the human body, the thought is " most complicated " that I have become in the class Student one of.
Having gone through one section after having no music, years without books, audible things that can be looked at were more and more suddenly, a kind of one that have more visitors or business than one can attend to overflows, unavoidably abandon the old for the new. But old firewood first impressions are strongest, make me passionately devoted all the time to him. A friend of mine asks once in surprise: "The person that you did things creatively like this, listen to the so vulgar music of old firewood? " Then I review, is oneself very vulgar at heart?
In middle period of the eighties of last century, listened to " the first piano concerto " at the scene in first time. The player is award-winning young pianist Li Jian of match in Margaret’s grand international piano. Melody familiar withed to listen to flow, rush down from hard youth but whippy finger Li, I was so excited that control oneself unexpectedly at that time. I admit I still like it, I admit too it is a little vulgar, think vulgarly that go vulgarly, why not say that like the old firewood oneself?
As for " sorrowful ", think even more it and life have a certain appropriateness, its melody is just like a sharp scalpel, strip the separation and reunion in life layer by layer, is announcing page by page soul is too deep and serene to examine, just as dissect that thick atlas that I read as a child. In fact, I do not know all the time the old firewood wants to tell us what it is through his music, but I know what oneself has got from his music.